Running is hard.
Starting over is hard.
Starting over running is very hard.
What’s that quote about if it were easy, everyone would be out there doing it? There are a lot of people out there running; maybe I am making it too hard.
I don’t know how I ever ran a half marathon, a marathon or any other thing I ever ran.
I’ve thought about giving up many times since I started over with running. More times than I’ve thought, “I can’t wait to run today!” It would be easy to give up, actually; blaming it on getting sick and reduced lung capacity and constant pain in my calf and well, near death, but I can’t give up.
Something inside won’t let me.
It’s been hard before. I’ve struggled through runs and learning to breathe and moving on aching legs. Then why does this feel different somehow? Harder. I’ve thought, “I’m not good at this,” “I’ll never get back to where I was,” and “This is way too hard to be worth it.”
Then, just like that, someone puts it back into perspective for me. It’s like adjusting the view on binoculars. Everything’s a blur until you find the right focus.
Only eight months ago I was in the cardiac ICU for a blood clot in my lung.
Only eight months ago I couldn’t walk, use the bathroom or bathe on my own.
Only eight months ago I left the hospital in a wheelchair with an oxygen tank.
It took me an hour to run-walk three miles on Sunday. But I finished.
Maybe running is supposed to be hard right now. Maybe I am right where I need to be.
Until the next mile marker,
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Keep going my friend. You continue to inspire. And you’re right, if it was easy, everyone would do it. I’m proud of you.
Thanks so much my BBFF! What you said means a lot to me. Thanks for stopping by – I hope you have a great day!
Have a great day too! xo I’ve had to take a few steps back too (I’ve been getting all sorts of weird cramps when I run past 4 miles or “quick”) Though, it’s not comparable to what you’ve gone thru, I understand the humbling and the frustration. Remember “same finish line” 😉 You’re a runner in your heart and your feet and legs will follow eventually.
I am sure this is hard but I also know that you can do it. I can’t wait to hear more about your journey.
Thanks, Ann! I appreciate your support.
Keep it up Sara! I’m sure those three miles were hard fought and I’m so glad you’re back to running.
Thanks so much, Suzanne! I appreciate you stopping by and reading, hope all is well with you.