Me & Henry in 2013

Henry David Thoreau that is. I’m starting to think that guy had it right (and he’s a writer so what’s not to love?) In [very] short, Thoreau was an American author, poet, philosopher, abolitionist, naturalist, tax resister, development critic, surveyor, historian, and leading transcendentalist. He filled a lifelong Journal — thousands of pages — with feelings as well as factual observations. He’s the most quoted American author, was a free-thinker, a minimalist and philosopher. His famous experiment in living close to nature, and his equally famous night in jail to protest an inhuman institution and an unjust war, are distilled in his best known works, Walden and “Civil Disobedience.” He mattered because he offers a wealth of thought and insight for people today – for me.

live in each moment

I am done living in the past. Wondering, worrying that if I had “done something different” this or that could have been prevented. I’m done living my life for people and worrying about what they think about me. I am who, I am. And I do have a lot to give, to say, to learn. I am loveable, just the way I already am. I’m not perfect – I have a lot to learn and some growing to do – but, I am me. Take me or leave me for who I am.

like me or not

 

And maybe sometimes, it’s okay that people come and go in my life. It wasn’t something I did wrong (or right) or something I should have done, would have done or could of done – it just is.

reason for people

 

And sometimes, there is just nothing we can do, but say goodbye and find peace in that instead of always looking for a reason why. But, it doesn’t make it hurt any less and maybe that is okay too.

painful goodbye

It hasn’t been easy (actually, it’s been a work in progress), but I’ve come up with some goals for 2013. Not stick-with-them-or-you’re-a-failure-for-the-rest-of-your-days resolutions, but thinks I want to see, think, learn, be. Starting with simply, to start living the life I imagine.

Dreams

Here is what I am thinking:

goals

  • Run a half marathon.

I don’t care when (as long as it isn’t too soon as I am still recovering, so maybe the summer) and I don’t care where (although I am thinking Emerald City, my favorite race), but I will run a half marathon this year. Emerald City 2013 sounds like it might be a good place to start.

courage to start

  • Write and publish a book.

Yes, I do have a lot to say. A lot has happened. A lot will happen in the years I have left. I’m constantly hearing “you should write a book” – whether it be because my life is that unbelievable or that unlucky or both – I’m going to write about it. No more talking about it, I’m just going to do it and publish it (e-book or otherwise) and put it in print.

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  • Start my new blog project.

I have two on back burners. They’ve been there for a few months now. One of them is coming to the forefront this year! I want to help other people like me – whether it be in getting healthy and achieving the once thought to be impossible through running or be it surviving something as horrible as a blood clot in the lung. There are people who need help. I want to be the one to help them.

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  • Spend more time in nature.

There is a lot to find in nature. Maybe even myself. I get tired of the city, the busy, the sounds and sights. The most beautiful things in this life are not made by man in concrete landscapes, they are created by God on the canvas of nature. There is beauty to be seen around us, but I think we forget to look.

woods

  • Canoe the Darby Creek.

With my husband. I don’t know how many miles it is or how many days it would take, but we’re going to do it. Some may call it, well, weird, but I want to try.

weirdness

  • Be Gluten-free.

This is going to be a big challenge, but I think it will be worth it. I want to eliminate all of the CRAP  from my life – it’s not good for us, it never has been and it never will be. Just about everything in the American diet has too much sugar, refined or highly processed carbs in it. It’s not healthy. To eat it is to not take care of ourselves. This will be a long road for me as I have always struggled with food, weight and control. I am not giving up. I also need to drink more water everyday and take my vitamins everyday.

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  • Focus on getting healthy.

2012 was a health storm. Hell, even my doctor described it as such, how’s that for medical terminology? I don’t want to go through that again – or any other major health crisis. While I couldn’t control what happened (and I am not going to feel guilty anymore about that), I want to take care of the body that I have now.

storm

  • Advocate!

For people who have faced, are facing, will face or know someone who has, is, will face a blood clot. More people must know. I want to tell everyone. There. Is. Hope for a better tomorrow. We can find it together.

strong people

  • Organize my [writing] life with OneNote.

I like it. It does what I want. It is only slightly counter-intuitive to me. I just need to practice and use it to store everything – especially as I am writing my book!

START

  • Freelance more.

I want to be a writer. This means I need to write more. Whether it be here, another blog, in print or in a journal – this year I will keep writing about everything. This includes updating my blog(s) more, journaling everyday and maybe jopefully paying the bills with writing someday. And, I want to Read Henry – everything he wrote.

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I want to be true to to my work, my word, and my friends. I want to be true to myself.

Be true

My friends-

memorable

And my love-

difficult love

 

But, even more than that, I want to be kind and speak softly to everyone I see in 2013. I will treasre my family too because you never know-

kindness

And, at the end of everyday, I can’t ever be ruined-

insecurity

Until the next mile marker,

Comments

  1. I love this post. I love Thoreau. Walden, Civil Disobedience, etc. All good good stuff.

  2. These are great goals! Good luck to you, love the images.

  3. How inspiring!

    I think it’s awesome that you want to not only write, but publish a book.

    Awesome goals!

  4. I love Henry Thoreau! He was a great writer and lover of nature, I also love reading the works of his friend and mentor, Ralph Waldo Emerson. The transcendentalist writers were on to something!

    I am also gluten-free – I don’t have Celiac disease, but am definitely intolerant to wheat/gluten. It’s not the easiest lifestyle change to make – but I always try to remember how awful I feel if I eat wheat when looking at a tempting pastry. Doesn’t matter how good that brownie/donut/cupcake will taste – it won’t make up for how sick I will feel later! Baked goods are my favorite thing to eat so switching to gluten-free was a big change, but it’s made me appreciate baking even more than before I went GF! If you ever come across a good GF soft pretzel – let me know! It’s one of the things I miss most since making the switch and am not confident enough in my baking skills to try making them… yet!

    • Sara- Words to Run By Blog says

      I totally agree with you about the transcendentalists. I want to read more from them!

      I am the same as you with gluten intolerance. Baked goods are not really my favorite thing, but I like a lot of pastas and rice and just high-carb, high-starch things that aren’t necessarily good for you to begin with. You should check out http://prettylittleceliac.com. Rebecca LOVES soft pretzels and always says that is what she misses the most – search her site because I think she might have found one! I try to eat gluten free as much as possible, but I am not as strict with it as I should be.

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